The suffering won’t last forever. It won’t be long before this generous God who has great plans for us in Christ—eternal and glorious plans they are!—will have you put together and on your feet for good. God gets the last word.
STEP FOUR
IN ORDER TO HELP ME CHANGE, I WILL INVESTIGATE AND RECORD WITH GOD’S HELP MY SINFUL HABITS AND ATTITUDES.
Some people fail in recovery when presented with Steps Four and Five! Take a good look at myself, and tell somebody else about it!
When I first came to recovery in 1987 via Serenity Lodge and Alcoholics Anonymous in Rockingham, Western Australia I wanted, and was willing (I thought) to go to any length to achieve it, but I wasn’t. I was incapable of taking a fearless and moral inventory of my life.
In Acts 24:25 Paul insists on right relations with God and his people, about a life of moral discipline.
I was incapable at 23 years old of living a life in a right relationship with God and with others, and a life of moral discipline. I had developed a life of lying to fit in!
2 Corinthians 12:20 says in the message, “I do admit that I have fears that when I come you’ll disappoint me and I’ll disappoint you, and in frustration with each other everything will fall to pieces—quarrels, jealousy, flaring tempers, taking sides, angry words, vicious rumors, swelled heads, and general bedlam.”
That is how I felt when I first came to recovery. I never expected to succeed in the process because my self-worth and esteem were zero. My thought at the time was “If I can last long enough to get my life a bit on track I will be in front.” ” Long enough to plan my next move.” Because at the time I had run out of places to run,
Luckily for me God gets the last word!
With my best interest at heart, He led me through a series of life lessons that led me eventually to the Salvation Army Bridge Programme in South Australia. Where He intervened and I am here today because of a decision to ‘turn my will and life over to Him.’
The changes started when I Took and honest look at me and told someone else about it.
sharing my experience, strength and hope. 